Saturday: did not get to walk, but housework and other stuff to get to. I have been continuing with food experiments. What keeps me full , what doesn’t. I want to get my ratios to 50 % protein, 30 % carbs and 20 % fat. My fat has been way higher than I would like. Also I have to figure out a way to at least have one cheat meal each week. Because i am starting to get resentful already, and that will lead to disaster. No yoga either, but did 2 sessions of meditation at 1 hour each.
Sunday: was able to get outdoors for my walk today which was nice. I really don’t like being indoors on a treadmill and I find I can barely go 30 minutes at a time. I usually have to break an hour into 20 minute segments on my nights off just to get in a decent amount of mileage. Over ate during my work shift tonight, forgetting to leave calories for when I wake up. My app format goes midnight to midnight, and being on night shift makes things odd. 45 minute walk, 10 minutes yoga, 30 minutes meditation.
Monday: after my appointment tonight I went to the store AGAIN tonight because I couldn’t deal with starvation from 430p- 12a. I got egg whites, & tuna and made a meal of 150 calories that will tide me over. I wound up at my calorie level after exercising too. 30 minutes on treadmill , 20 minutes yoga, 20 minutes meditating. I am thinking I may have to adjust my expectations to 40% protein, because even where I am at on average now am eating over 100 grams each day and only really need 65g according to the standard. Day 2 of zero nicotine and feels like I am dying…regular gum is just not cutting it right now.. BUT, I am muddling through…trying to focus on my art, blogging and not over eating to compensate.
I hope this new “daily journal format” doesn’t make anyone yawn. The idea behind it is to provide an inside account of the struggles , successes & progress of this particular project so that anyone who is also on the journey doesn’t feel alone. I keep notes for a few days at a time and then post, so these should only come about twice per week. Hopefully it won’t get too boring. At some point, i will hit a sticking point i am sure and new strategies will be necessary. Let me know if you are on a similar journey and what is working for you!
Namaste!
Wake up! 
I love reading your progress and seeing what works for you. It’s tough to figure out what works the best for each of us. I really need to get better on board with exercising but like you said I have trouble with being indoor on the treadmill. I was putting a huge handful of kale in my shakes I take to work every day. Super yummy and love all the benefits of kale. Well after 10 days or so of eating it every day I broke out in hives. They are awful and I’m sure it’s the daily kale I have been incorporating. Today will be day 2 of no kale. Hives itching is better. We shall see if the hives go away the longer I’m not eating kale. Frustrating but just a minor set back.
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yikes! yes, i have had similar experiences. What is great for some , is NOT for others..Fir me, everyone keeps telling me to “try CBD”..I am allergic to it- in all forms.I try to explain that it is still an oil from a weed but its like trying to explain the internet to an ant with some people…lmao..they just don’t get it . i actually wind up at the hospital because i go into anaphylaxis !
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I like the new format. My fitness tracker has stopped working. Until I get another one I’m using my sons Pokémon Go app. Gives me a distance but is quite good fun. I’ve gone dairy, soya, caffeine, meat free. Currently it’s hard work – especially the coffee. I was definitely addicted to it.
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ugh..the coffee…it’s all i have left..haha! i’ve been limiting it for sure but cant seem to let go!
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I LOVE your artwork!! I also love your motivation. I like to think I’m on a wellness journey, but I think I’m moving along in the slow lane… It’s just so hard to be disciplined with everything all the time. I’ve lost 30 pounds over this past year, due to not drinking, exercising and eating healthy-ish, but I need to lose at least 10 more and I seemed to be stalled out. The weekends are when I tend to get off track with eating…erasing the progress I’ve made during the week. UGH!
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wow!! congrats on that! i had so hoped i would lose weight when i quit drinking..but alas i gained. Mostly i think because before i would just drink on my nights off and not eat for days. i think the yo yo of it kept me thinner . But i also smoked heavily . I guess i feel lucky though that i started working on myself in other ways when i quit. If i hadn’t the gain would have likely been way worse!!
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Good luck on the nicotine! That is such a tough one. Only pregnancy made me finally quit. But I never think about cigarettes now. And I used to love them. But it’s been almost 10 years now. I love the fox!
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thanks..i quit cigarettes back in November, but have had a tough time quitting the gum.it was also helping me with appetite control on the diet..so ugh! I had quit once for 10 years and went back after a divorce. But, i can do this…saying my Mantra’s!!
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Not sure if it helps but when I gave up smoking I just kept telling myself that if I have one I’m just loading my system with nicotine and that is feeding the craving to recharge itself. xox
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yes, i get that. I have no desire for a cigarette at all and haven’t since 2 weeks after i quit but..dammit- this gum thing! i have used it at work for years to keep me awake at work all night and suppress my appetite . I think quitting the gum is far worse for me than the smokes!! lmao!!
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Well I have gained 2 stone over the past year to 18 mths. I have to get control of it now. I did need to put some on but not 2 bloody stone!! I too didn’t lose any weight when I stopped drinking. Booze replaced food for me in my last few years of drinking. All very unhealthy. I’m glad that’s not the case now but it is time to focus on healthy eating and maybe losing 12 – 14lbs. Good luck with the gum xx
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ugh..yes, it seems to be the bane of it all for us women…i do know men who gained when quitting alcohol, but more women.It gets tougher to lose as we get older too…
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I like an insight into daily life, I try to be flexible when a day doesn’t go as planned, it’s difficult sometimes, like yesterday the kitchen sink got clogged and I got horrible guilty, I spent an hour trying to fix it, then I was an hour behind my other preferred commitments, I did a workout to try to regain my positive mind frame, kind of accepted my shame even though I thought it a bit out of proportion and a few hours later made it back to being grateful to be alive and enjoying what I could out of the day. Today someone else fixed it and everything is fine, I think I held back other shame and it came pouring out when I faced a situation that I felt valid in letting it out. Because I clogged the sink with spinach leaves an accident, but through no one else’s fault but my own bad habit of expecting the disposal to do what I guess the trash can should really be doing. Anyways, long ramble, but the point behind it is that somehow ready your post like this helps me to have a little Lovie on my shoulder trying to get me back on track during my day too! So thank you very much for these posts, they cover everyday life but also habit change and mindfulness in a way that is pretty rare! 💖
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