It’s been a long year already. Today i was yet again sitting in my bedroom for hours , watching another few episodes of the Walking Dead and eating ice cream. Yes, this has become a habit for me recently, not that i am proud of it.
I believe i started this daily habit right after Christmas some time. Part of it because i realized i no longer wanted to drink( hence the ice cream), and partly because binge watching stuff is a way to escape my own life for a while. They are now my “comforts”, if you will.
I haven’t been writing as much on here or elsewhere, and socializing even less. I can’t lay the blame on any ONE thing in particular, but i am feeling somewhat overwhelmed in general. To write a list would be senseless and boring, not to mention silly because everyone has their own burdens to bear.
Yes, i am still lifting weights and doing art. I am exhausted but I am surviving. In my mind i am daily reciting things i am grateful for and hope to emerge from this feeling of drowning soon.
I pray that you all are well. I am here. I miss you.
Namaste