It’s been 24 years since i have had the courage to buy and wear a bikini. But i did it today. I put it on, took pictures and forced myself to face my fears and post them, both here and on social media. It’s been one year since i started back into bodybuilding with commitment and focus. And starting over again at age 54 wasn’t easy. My self confidence had hit rock bottom after a decade of slacking off, partying, toxic relationships and otherwise letting myself go. I didn’t think i would ever be able to show my body, flaws and all, publicly ever again. Here ya go:
These photos signify one full year of consistent hard work, dedication, and sacrifice. A year of struggling with nutrition and health issues. A year of getting up, going in and putting in the work- day after day- even when i didn’t feel like it.
I have another year, maybe even two, to go before i am ready to even think about competing.I need to add more lean muscle, sculpt and refine.And then the truly hard part- competition “prep” will begin.
Everyday, i am grateful I made the choice to quit a lifestyle that was destructive, unproductive, and full of bad choices. Everyday, i am grateful i finally chose “me”.
And now, i can look that insecurity demon in the eye and say
“I got this.”
Namaste!
Wake up! 